Feeling depressed

I'm on my way to the graduation path...
But it's really thorny and hard. I don't feel like drawing lately, my mid is full with the thought of my final project. And yet, I haven't know yet how to get through this. I haven't found a good style for the illustration  book that I'm gonna make for my final project.

So, here I post an old work which I haven't published before

Made with adobe illustrator CS3.

I'm a big fan of Big Bang. and my favourite member is TOP. He's just so... so... masculine, cool, and I love his unique voice.

He once had a hairstyle that make him similar to a blue ice cream. So here it is. A chibi version of TOP.
FYI, I went to the concert and even though my seat is the cheapest one and it's so far, that was a great concert!

Cantarella

I'm not a big fan of Vocaloid, but I really like the songs.
Currently I love listening to Cantarella. Yes, I'm weird, but the psychotic love story of this song really intoxicate me.

The guy who's willing to do anything to have his beloved is really crazy. He went as far as killing. But... I don't know... It's just really romantic for me. I can't help but draw a fanart.

The guy is called Kaito I guess? And the green hair girl called Miku.

After doing some research, apparently Cantarella is the name of a poison from Borgia family an Italian Noble family. They're famous from using poison to eliminate their enemies.
In the Borgia family there's a couple of sibling, Cesare Borgia and Lucrezia Borgia. There's suspicion about them having incestuous relationship. I guess in the music video, Miku act as Lucrezia and Kaito is Cesare.

 There are plenty of other fanarts which are of course, much better than mine. But I draw this because I want to, so it's okay I guess?

For those who are curious about the song, here's a link to the video

Cantarella-Vocaloid

I'm back!

I just got back from my vacation. I went to Bali with my two best friends. It was a really fun trip and Bali is such a beautiful island.
We went to Pure (Hindu's sacred place for pray), there are so many of them with the traditional and unique architecture. And of course, the beaches! They are really beautiful, we burnt ourselves because we played too much.

When I got back, I'm back to the reality. I'm a college student who's got her final project in front of her. I can't help but feel stressful. So, I draw. Just for fun, but if I think about it, it's not just about fun. It's a practice for me to face my final project. Afterall, I chose illustration as my theme. I'm going to do illustrations for a book called True Love by Robert Fulghum. The stories inside the book are really heartwarming and sweet. So I hope I can do my best to make illustrations as heartwarming as the stories.

 Searching a style for my final project. I want to draw something heartwarming and cute. Is this a good style for my final project? I'm still searching.

 Realist practice. This is a portrait of my father. My mother said it doesn't resemble him much. I made the eyes too small

Portrait of my mother. Even I don't think this resemble her, I made her face too round. I think I won't show her this picture. I think this picture resemble my late grandmother more instead of my mother. Well, my grandmother is the mother of my mother so they should resemble each other right? So I don't think this is a total failure